I don't even know who I am anymore...

I've changed so much.
I'm evil, conniving, a bad friend etc. All I do is hurt the people I love the most.
Who am I? I don't know anymore...
I don't know if I like what I've become... I just don't know anymore.
I keep hurting the people I love and it's fucked up. I'm done hurting people.
I'm just gonna keep to myself and associate with no one.
I can't associate with people if I'm just gonna keep hurting them, it's not fair to them or me.
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